Sitting here every day
Scrolling through the trashcan
Of everybody else’s random thoughts
I’m an addict, but I can’t stop voyuerizing
Cos while I am it’s hypnotizing me
From being what I want to be
I try to force myself to be productive
But it doesn’t work that way
I just get blocked and stuck again
All I really need to do is just stop needing this
To be something I’m not
Stop being so afraid to tell the truth
I’m locked away
Doing all the same things and hoping for something new
I’m locked away
And I’m living in a self destructive mess it’s true
And I’m living in a self destructive mess it’s true
And I’m living in a self destructive mess it’s true
Now even though I know how this works
Doesn’t make it go away
Every day I still struggle against this force of undoing
That pushes me down again
I used to hope that I would conquer it one day
But now I know
That this fight against the force of doing nothing
Is the way of all good men
I’m locked away
I’m sickening in an endless loop with you
I’m locked away
Doing all the same things hoping for something new
I’m locked away
And I’m filling up my head with screens that just make me blue
I’m locked away
And I’m living in a self destructive mess it’s true
And I’m living in a self destructive mess it’s true